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I'll Figure This Out

by Barely Civil

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1.
...For Now 01:14
I think there’s a mistake I can’t keep my mouth shut I still feel my bones break we’ve been stuck here too long. I think we’ve been misplaced; where are our mothers? Let’s get out of this place, go back where we came from.
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At the bottom of the lake I found comfort in the lack of sound I was only misguided— promise I was misguided. From the corner of the room I yelled banging on my chest to feel Something pumping in my chest, knuckles dig into my chest. Sorry for the loss you felt— sorry for the mess as well Pity for the misguided all of this was misguided And I was all alone a vagrant on my own and I was all alone In the corner of my mind I saw shadows on my bedroom wall: figures of the misguided, holding on the misguided. Better that I stay inside Take my words and take my pride, bitter me, the misguided; better off, the misguided. From the bottom of the lake i rise: hanging on to your left side Saving me, the misguided pushing forth the misguided My lungs were nearly giving out. Who am I to feel let down? a pity for the misguided all of this was misguided
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Photographed for the very last time in the worst pose I’ll find myself getting lost on my front lawn shaking fists at my neighbors sometimes I feel left out Keep your distance I’m a trainwreck on fire, a digression from the best parts you’d like, in possession of a new way to lie— maybe I’ll drown but this time I’ll fight. sometimes I feel let down Tracing circles on my skin, feel my blood thin embrace the comfort that I feel when I’m broken I guess it’s better to be lost and then found than to never have been found in the first place. Keep discussing what it means to be honest but honestly I don’t think it’s very pertinent now Conversations over dull topics fading— I can’t stand it when you call me out
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I’m sorry, when’s a good time to kick myself out? ‘Cause I’ve been eating all your food And i’ve been stealing all your time And if I’m being quite honest, I don’t remember what is mine. and I’m sorry But I— I didn’t mean to yell I got a little worked up. And I— I know I know your name I’m sorry I called you that. But I— I can’t help but feel like I’ve taken too much. And I— I don’t think you care about much at all. I’m sorry when’s a good time to kick myself out? ‘Cause I don’t get much sleep on your couch. And I— I can’t keep on breathing this air, I don’t think I can, I think I am breaking you so i’ll go home I’m sorry, when’s a good time to kick myself out? I’ve taken all that’s good you are nothing now. You’re gone and I’m still here— so tell me: in what world does that seem fair?
5.
I awoke in the back of your throat to make you choke, to make it so. If I grow will my skin stretch far enough to fit my bones? I hope so. Will I go? With state lines screaming GPS says “Go”— but I won’t. I awoke with your jacket wrapped around me but where’s your arm? Probably where you are, and I won’t go. I emerge from the water deep beneath your floorboards. I awoke on the rooftop— wondering if I jump, will you catch me? I don’t think so so I’ll go.
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I’m scared of who I am and who I’ve become in the last year or two: a fragile mistake meant to cull the herds of me. I lost hope In the backseat of the first car that I drove to the places I love and where I swore I’d never see. I’m growing out of fear that I will be too small to live in peace without the thought That I would have to remember— My body is just a mistake: A simple box for all my organs. To all my closest friends— i wish you well, I guess.
7.
Fairmount 03:23
By now you know the sun is coming out You draw the blinds to block it out and all you want is to fall asleep. A heartbreak that keeps you up throughout the night No time to talk, no time to fight searching for a sense of relief. Back down You’re never gonna drift away You are the shore, you break the waves— a stubborn bend at the end of the day Dictate Just how you’d like this to proceed. like do you ever want to leave? or are you held to a safe place to stay? Pinned down You’re never gonna fall in love You’re never gonna find someone and you’ll find it’s hard to breathe Deep down You know the worst is yet to come or maybe not, you’re 21 you still find it’s hard to sleep with no dreams.
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Amid the worst part of December I lost a sense of where to hide. To keep myself within the embers ‘til I can set this place on fire. A kind of portrait of the new year, the lack of sureness hurts my eyes A pair of intravenous flytraps that help my blood move every night. so tell me when I’m safe to speak again ‘cause I don’t want to leave this A forceful push that says you mean it and keeps my feet pressed on the ground If i can’t make it with my own voice i can’t afford to leave this town Against the backdrop of my twenties It kills me slowly just to breathe I’ll leave the basement feeling empty, and stay that way until I sleep There’s something in the way I feel now that tells me it’s okay to lose I’m pushing past the point of hoping— dressing up to read the news o tell me when I’m safe to speak again ‘cause I don’t want to leave this all behind.
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I’m sure that you’ve gone, met such a good one You’ve never cared so much for anyone It’s been too long and i don’t feel strong, wish I could reach in, replace my lungs, and breathe again. I felt distant and overwhelmed, carrying hatred for my shell A simple backstep from growing up so well a means to an end; a space to dwell. I swear that I’m alright I promised we’d live here forever, if you’d like— It’s a bullshit and common lie, but one that helps me sleep at night. I’m scared to grow I’m scared that you’ll always hate me so i’ll give in, until I give out again. Now it’s 2 AM, My body’s 3 hours away and after 5 spent calls I think I’m starting to miss me.
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...Forever 04:14
So i’ll approach Shameless and broke. With no advantage, and no remorse. I’ll encroach on your hope without abandon, my words revoked. I’ll approach. I feel your head on my shoulder again like a phantom pain or a powerful gaze. I place my hands on my sternum and press to feel the weight of something finally leaving my chest To be a daring ship captain and wear your red shirt this time for the right occasion— in the right mind I’m supposed to go, so I’ll go.

about

"I’ll Figure This Out", Barely Civil’s sophomore full-length, offers temporary solutions to this existential concern. With Chris Teti (TWIABP, Fiddlehead) joining as producer, the band’s massive live energy translates into concise, yet expansive arrangements. “Box for My Organs” slams sonic triumph against plainspoken self-doubt. Grief and guilt are on the same plane in “Bottom of the Lake,” while the band contemplates the sustainability of burning their twenties at both ends on “The Worst Part of December.”

“I feel like our music revolves around the process of analyzing who we are and where we come from,” Erickson explains. “Possibly, even, where we belong.” I’ll Figure This Out attempts to answer those questions while turning completely inward. It’s a darker chapter in a constantly evolving discography. The only way out, it seems, is through.

credits

released September 4, 2020

All songs written by Barely Civil
Produced and mixed by Chris Teti at Silver Bullet Studios
Mastered by Dan Coutant at Sun Room Audio

Barely Civil is:
Connor Erickson - vocals, guitar, bass on “North Newhall,” trumpet on “Hollow Structures”
Ben Forst - bass, guitar on “North Newhall”
Alex Larsen - guitar, aux on “North Newhall”
Isaac Marquardt - drums, vocals on “Box for My Organs”

Artwork and layout by Evan Wachowski
Lyrical interpolation courtesy of Circus Fires

Barely Civil would like to thank: Our unbelievably supportive families, James Cassar, Joe Urban and Take This To Heart Records, Chris Teti, Dan Coutant, Evan Wachowski, Rachel Malvich, Alex Martin, Sheetz, Ryan Harris, Ellie Hart, Eric Doucette, Karl Schultz, Macey Davis, Matt Riefler, Chris Kelsey, Clara Hewins, Haley Teniente, Isaac Davis, Kwik Trip, Moira Enders, Sofia Verbilla, Alex Northrup, MBMBaM, Brett Schlidt, JJ Kaiser, Lisa Strehlow Marquardt for the use of her van, Culver’s, BravoArtist, Mess, Future Teens, The Sonder Bombs, Heart to Gold, bristletongue, The Insides, Corey Purvis, Heather Amendola, The Weak Days, Burnidette, Kayak Jones, worlds greatest dad, Barely March, Telethon and Halloween Records, Sarah Cowell, Half Access, Keith Verbilla, Hey Riddle Riddle, and Shortstack Forst.

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